My Diary March 2014

Justice

 

 

Justice is a blind bitch on steroids

Oscar is finding it out

the hard way

and so will Shrien

if  he finally is extradited

I spent days and months

in the Supreme Court of Pretoria

as a court Reporter

So I know, be it a little

I also took on an Union

harbouring a theft syndicate

and I won all 42 cases

although it took two years

and nearly cost me my life

We must blame the Dutch,

the Romans and the Pommy Empire

for our justice system

No 1 realised long ago

He needs the Judiciary

and the Security cluster

to force himself

and his ideology

on the people

But is there justice ?

Yes there is

with the proviso

you have money and lots of it

an Abused wife fighting

 her criminal husband

in court for divorce

has little chance

An Advocate said

deposit R60 K in my bank account

and you are rid of him

in three days guaranteed

bur you do not have money

and now it could take years

The other alternative is to

take him out

In our country that means

pay  a criminal to kill him

That will only cost 5K

The courts are overburdened

welfare workers overworked

the police corrupt

so an ordinary man/woman

stands little chance

to receive justice

We will go through the motions

and all emotions

with the Oscar case

Procedure will be followed

substantive proof,

beyond a shadow of a doubt

will be bandied about

and a reasonable man

may or may not walk free

the deceased will remain dead

justice for her

is already in another realm

she cannot get her life back

At the end of the day

the winner will be

the one with the best

team behind him/her

and that will cost millions

Justice is

our collective conscience

unfortunately it is in the hands

of the state

and if you do not have

political connections

in our beloved democracy

you may be denied justice

The system is flawed

the orderlies overworked

and underpaid

No 1 is confidant

the majority,

will even change the constitution

and then my friend

we are lost

and Justice

comes to naught

So we shall ride

the emotional rollercoaster

with Oscar and with Reeva's family

Justice will run it's course

and will be served

or will it

You be the judge

peace and love be with you

my brothers and sisters

and may the Almighty afford

you true justice

forever

Amen

doulos

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It tears trough my soul
it sounds distant
and I clearly hear the agony rasping away
a woman's screams for help
She is hyperventilating
her mouth contorting gaping for air
she tries to protect herself with her arms
I tell my wife to bring her water
I hold her hug her and comfort her
It was a terrible dream
the bastard that taunted her for 11 years
invaded her dreams with a roaring car
This girl grew up in front of me
I feel her pain intensely
like I feel the pain when my
 own daughters are in distress
Just moments ago we were talking
and smoking, plotting a way
through the court case that looms
A Young mother of three children
one just a baby
"I will fight this, even if it kills me
at least then I will die because
I stood up for myself"
I rebuke the image and ask her
to do the same
She is beautifull
her eyes reflects
the pain and trauma she
 has suffered for so long
My anger threatens to erupt
vulgar bile rising in me
choking me
I want to be all over him 'like a
 pack of wild African dogs
I want to tear the flesh of him
and devour him
while he screams
 like the coward he is
My conscious screams Noooo!
"Fuck this I had enough
I shout back at it"
I make her a cup
of warm milk with honey
We will be there for you
I promise and I intend
 keeping that promise
Stop the Genocide against Eve
bring peace and love my brothers
to our sisters, that are under siege
If you are men take up the sword
This scourge of the ages must stop
and all it takes
are a few good men acting.



 

At last freedom
One woman rising
Breaking the shackles
brave and courageous
facing the storm
one word
Yes
It holds all
the promise of a new life
a future for her children
she broke the shackles
she conquered
the fear
she faced her tormentor
the one she once loved
he brutalised her
he degraded her
he beat her to a pulp
he wanted to kill her
Yes
I am free
born free
watch me rise
watch me grow
watch me blossom
my body suffered
my soul stays free
Yes
bring it on
bring on the future
I am ready
I am woman
I am strong
Yeeeeeeeees!
be free my beloved sisters
have peace and love
protect them brothers
set them free
Amen
doulos

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How did I get here ?
in my own little space ?
It is mine
do not invade it
I share it with whom I will
If you approach
I shall move away
and take my space with me
Even if you brutalise me
even if you try to kill me
or invade my body forcefully
you shall leave without my space
It may be small now
shrunk by life's storms
my own disappointment
my own deeds
it is still mine
Now I am enlarging it
now I expand it
I take back my territory
and maybe just maybe
I  shall let someone in
My babies invade it
they are comfortable there
I feed them with love
nourish them with my soul
they are me
I am them
even naked and poor
we are rich
and enjoy abundance
in my little space
My  beauty my charm
my being, my warmth
my love and heartache
decorates my little space
Peace and love be with you
my brothers and sisters
fill your space
Forever
Amen
doulos


Puppy

 

If I bare my soul
know this blog is not about me
I share because I care
and just maybe
I will hit a chord
I am going through
a lot of stress
reaching out
to try and save
a situation
to keep a mother
and her children together
so yesterday I freaked
for no apparent reason
I went ballistic
shouting at Sherbert our dog
because he was barking
without stopping
my wife said
I went crazy
Why though?
I tried to rationalise
my behaviour
lying in bed praying
I am dead tired
from little sleep
then it struck me
then I realised
I am a little boy
a dreamer
soft and gentle
too gentle to
my family's licking
I must be made a man
I must be tough
so I feel in love  with a puppy
there were a few
I was taken away
with the puppies
in a box
don to an extension
that was developed
close to the spruit
I watched them being shot
one by one
Bang ,bamg, bang
then I had to toss
their dead bodies into the water
That image is
 edged into my conscious
Yes dear wife I went crazy
trying o protect a little dog
trying to stop "them"(He)
from murdering them
and I cannot tell you
Am too ashamed
of my weakness
I know
you do not read my blog
 and why should you?
Peace and love be with you
my beloved brothers and sisters
Forever
Amen
doulos


 Human

"Human"

 I can take so much
'Til I've had enough

Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human