My Diary January 2014 onwards

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The road is long
With many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows where
But I'm strong
Strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother 

I wrote earlier

a year ago? 

It was June 2013

A great South African

Is greeting

 

I believe strongly.

That we the people

Of this splendid country

Have a future

I believe there

Are enough brilliant

South Africans left

On our soil

To steer our ship

Into calmer waters

No matter, what

Foul weather is rising

On the horizon.

Let Tata

Enjoy his last

Days in peace

And with dignity

Alas

We now know

it was not so

Whatever happened

it remains disturbing

It is a new year

and I close the door

on the year of Our Lord 2013

I close the door

on triumphs

I close in on pain

on sorrow

and on joy

a new step forward

all is new

can I live

every day

this way?

grateful

yesterday

 is over

today has begun

Yes I know I am early

why should I conform

Why should I not accept

that 2014 will come

as sure as

today has arrived?

Is that faith?

is that arrogance?

is that fatalistic?

No and a thousand times No

I demand tomorrow

I stand on the promise

of Life

I refuse

to accept defeat

I cry out to

My Father

to enlarge my territory

to grant me time

to fulfil

my destiny

a new little bird

is going through the womb

of time

was created in the throes

of my mind

You shall see it soon

Q shall arise

as Intaka did

and the Queen

and K

when the Israelites

wandered through the desert

they were given food

that included Q's

descendants

I stand on that promise

the promise

of my daily bread

I stand on the promise

the promise

of a new life

So my dear compatriots

also those of you

who loaded

your Venter trailers

full of tinned food

awaiting

SA's Armageddon

I shall not call you fools

shall not say

I told you so

my time is precious

it is now

and yes

I embrace

the Year of our Lord

2014

Peace and love bet with you

my brothers and sisters

now and forever

Amen doulos



 

 

 

U-John

 

 

 

 

 

Monica is reading

 

A long Walk to Freedom

She laughed out loud

about the incident

where a condescending white Lady

threw a sixpence at John(Madiba)

when he helped her

He explained that whites

used to call Africans John

if the did not know them

or their name

So Rosalien's(our housekeeper) son

little Michael came

to visit

We helped getting him built up boots

to rectify his club feet

From the onset he called me

U-John

No matter how his mother explained my name

I remained U-John

I told her to let the child be

as I really did not matter

I remained U-John to this day

and MIcheal is now

a strapping young lad

Little Michael's Uncle

convinced him to call

all white males John

in retaliation to being called

John by whites

Michael's Uncle's humour

was sharp and lasting

Does it really matter

what people call us ?

A great man, Madiba

was called John

a lesser man, me

was called John

Two sides to the

same coin

This seems like a light hearted

account of life in South Africa

Yet it is cutting deep

deep into the roots

of pain that people suffered

without  reason

because of the injustice

one race visited

on another

Jesus was baptised by John

Jesus, A royal

baptised by John

a normal person

It still irks me

endlessly

that preachers

promoted and supported

Apartheid for so many years

from their pulpits

Jesus was a man of Love

a man of Peace

a man that understood humanity

and at the same time

he was the One

who created humanity

How can one not love oneself

therein lies the message

that us humans cannot understand

For now we see through a glass, darkly;

but then face to face:

 now I know in part; but ...

Thank you Tata

for grasping

that message

Let us all be John

plain and simple

Many John's

of different hue and colour

Let us live in peace

let us love one another

irrespective of faith

ethnicity, gender, orientation

health, status

age

now a new year

is dawning

let us just be John

Peace and love be with you my brother and sister Johns
forever

The Race

The colors of a rainbow.....so pretty ..in the sky

Are there on the faces.....of people ..going by

I see friends shaking hands.....sayin.. how do you do

They're really sayin...*spoken*(I ....love....you).

I hear babies cry...... I watch them grow

*spoken*(you know their gonna learn

A whole lot more than I'll never know)

And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world

Yes I think to myself .......what a wonderful world.

Five babies

Me, my two daughters

and my two grandchildren

From the same seed

but one daughter

had a white mother

the second a darker mother

my grandchildren

one has a African mother

and  a "lighter" father

my wife's first child

one has a white mother

white grandparents

and mixed grandparents

and a African father

all the same

I would however

love to record their lives

to see how they develop

how they respond

to the challenges of life

how they respond to

societal issues

like race and gender

how they respond

to religion and spirituality

When  our love child

Krismonne was small

we took her out

of a nursery school

after she was telling

stories of "animals do not mix"

and other racist

overtones

we put her into a school

further from home

wit a more enlightened character

We live in Primrose

the school is in Bedfordview

She will "graduate " there

this year

Now I am telling stories

I am actually

going to "skinder"

no names

no Pac drill

I the shoe fits

you are most welcome

to wear it

Scenario one

An adult man

taking care of ailing parents

get's warned

never to bring a black woman home

as it would kill them both

Scenario two

I show "an enlightened female"

was at Wits nogal

an advertisement

in a school magazine

she refers to a speech bubble

"and the K ,what does it

stand for" K.****r" ?

she answers her

own question

Scenario three

A young African man

get's life threats

from his in Laws

both white

and respected and loved

by him

Eina, ouch !!!

it hurts

and it hurts deeply

closet racists

all of them

They are people I love

and thought I knew

but at a moment of anger

a moment of frailty

a moment of jealousy

they instantly reveal

their inner selves

We the rainbow nation

are full of them

Racism is alive and well

in the

"New South Africa"

in a country

where the vast majority

are Christians

Our President's

abusive rhetoric

and the ruling party's

blatant racism

are clear for

all to see

Then I remember Tata

MADIBA

like the world

will always remember him

A man that has overcome

oppression

who fought injustice

and could still find

forgiveness and reconciliation

in his heart

Then I feel like

singing along with Louis

about a wonderful world

My dear brothers and sisters

let us make this country

a wonderful world

by living in peace and harmony

by loving our neighbour

Peace  and love be with you

my African brothers and sisters

of all different hues and colours

forever

Amen

doulos

Girl

 

 

In my last entry

I talked  about the girls

in my live

Hilda-Marie

Krissmonne

Shaunette

Abigail

and

what would happen in their lives

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Little Abigail

Hilda(Lollie)

Krissmonne

Shaunette

 Last night I received
a good dosage of what to expect
Krissmonne lectured my wife and I
about religion and where she stands
I am Spiritual
I do not like people
calling themselves Christians
and then shows hate toward others
I have Christian friends
and I am Ok with that
I respect them
for their choice
I left this guy x
who kept on preaching
out of the bible
but then said he hated gays
She is outspoken
she is confidant
she knows exactly
what she wants out of life
She is 13
Hilda is a registered chartered Accountant
she shows the same tendencies
She is successful
she is committed
she is independent
Her husband Aaron
came to ask our "permission"
by taxi
and I am Shure my wife was surprised
at my response
I gave him two
conditions
She completes her studies
and no talk about marriage and babies
before that time
They kept to this
undertaking
After seven years they married
Quite biblical I would say
Shaunette my grandchild
from Monica's side
told her mother
in no uncertain terms
"I am going to my Oupa"
Little Abigail is a bundle of joy
and already I can see
her mother in her
I thank the Creator
for granting me
interaction with these
precious souls
I know instinctively they
are protected as I am
I pray for them
every day
See I am also not religious
but spiritual
yes I follow Christ
but I do not follow
a church
I know the Bible
intimately
and therein lies the rub
Injustice to girl children
are often motivated
by some religious dogma
the problem
being the interpretation
of various Holy books
We know the horrors Africa
bestow on girl children
the same goes for India
and other places
on the globe
I stand ashamed that men
frantically pursue
these tainted practises
purely to satisfy
their own lustful ego's
I am talking nonsense you say
explain to me dear man
child marriages in KZN
explain to me
Apartheid
being preached by men
who also could not
grant women an equal opportunity
to serve The Church
If you indeed have balls
admit it
you know it is the truth
Let us stand up and be counted
let us weigh our hearts
before the Creator does
Let us protect and serve
the fragile and innocent
let us be Men
then our children
will develop
into splendid citizens
all across the world
They do not need us
to form them or mould them
the Creator does that
through life experience
We are but custodians
and WILL be held
accountable
Peace and love
be with you my brothers and girl children
young and old
Forever
Amen
doulos





 Day 3

The earth brought forth vegetation,
 plants yielding seed according to their own kinds,
 and trees bearing fruit in which is their seed,
 each according to its kind.
And God saw that it was good.
Indeed it was
and therefore we live
Cain, Eve's firstborn
offered from the bounty
of his orchard and garden
Abel offered from his flocks
God favoured Abel's offer
Today we have those
who call themselves vegetarians
and look down on the
 carnivores, us meat-eaters,
for our brutality
so often I wonder
why God warned Cain
that sin was in front of his door
because he was not happy
about the situation
well he proved God right
by killing Abel
I know nothing
the more I "learn"
the less I know
The vegan landed
the first blow
and indeed plants consume protein
we know for our discarded bodies
shall feed them in cemeteries
and a bit quicker
if we abuse plants
like cannabis for instance
or the fruit of the vine
a combination of the two
can have calamitous results
we know
the death toll on the roads
tell us so
I planted a veggie garden in pots
on advice I added marigolds
to see off insects
and it works
The flowering plant
is protecting my veggies
a dumb plant knows
more than I do
I use Moringa every day
and it works
it protects and builds
my immune system
and provides
me with vitamins
and minerals etc.
There are thousands
of plants
that are beneficial to man
Nature's chemist
has cures for most our ailments
but we know so little
I know the bunch
of experts
who would frown
at our baseness
,when created chemicals
give "miracle  cures",
To them I say
"show me your source"
Ayurveda cures
excited
long before they
were born
I tell my clients
"listen to your doctor"
 and listen to your body
use your prescribed medication
and supplement it
with nature's bounty
I know it works
I see it daily
Beware the so called
faith healers
who tell you
to discard all medicine
if you want to be cured
These charlatans
have killed more people
than they have ever
"cured"
Miracle's do happen
but when it is "sold" wholesale
I run away
We need wisdom
when dealing with our health
we only have one life
let us live it to
the fullest
and use every resource available
to do so
Peace and love be with you
my brothers and sisters
forever
Amen


Grass

How did we get from this
Nebuchadnezzar
to this

The bible teaches us to pray
...and give us our daily bread.
not
and give us our daily grass
There are wolves
out there "Preaching"
and "prophesying"
and they are clearly
not of sound mind
The Church
is terminally ill
and needs to be admitted
to ICU
It needs
Interpretation,
Context and Unction
Every person that can read
and have a bit of "charisma"
is suddenly
 an Apostle,
Pastor, Prophet
unfortunately they find sheep
that follows them
like sheep
It is not only
y an African thing
In America
they have nude churches
People playing
with poisonous snakes
and many weird and wonderful
rituals, that are passed off
as biblical
The problem is
these Charlatans
all have a vision
they all received a message
directly from God
They even think
they are the
messiah reincarnates
and by the likes of it
One of them
seems to imply
him as the Antichrist
Matthew warns
For many will come
 in my name, claiming,
 'I am the Messiah,'
 and will deceive many.
These people are dangerous
they sell "holy" water
and they sell "Holy" oil
and they tell people
they do not need medication
and that They, will heal them
people die because of this
Romans warns us
about spiritual blindness
As it is written,
“God gave them a spirit of stupor,
eyes that would not see
 and ears that would not hear,
down to this very day.”
I think the line
between Good and Evil
is so thin
that it is overstepped
by these people
who "Justify"
their actions
from the Bible
or from the Spirits
or from God Himself
My dear friends
it is not my intention
to preach
although my Father
was one
I am not called
 Apartheid was
supported
by mainline Churches
The ANC struggle
was born in churches
Churches are
powerful institutions
and in
the wrong hands
can have
devastating effects
 Both No 1
and Juju
runs to the church
when under siege
May peace and love be with you
my brothers and sisters
and may you see and hear
Forever
Amen
doulos