History

My Diary February 2015 onwards

I see

Suspended
because he fantasised
about having a magic ring
only in America
This little boy
was enthralled by Tolkien
now he is
punished
I also fantasised
when I was
a small boy
my imaginary  world
was wonderful
a safe place
my wife's
mother shows
me a school
she went to  in 1941
she started school there
she is 84
she remembers
vividly
sanely
mysteriously
my grandfather
fantasised
of going
to the moon
he was
told to stop
dreaming
we landed
on the moon
Joseph dreamt
"silly" dreams
I dream
and I am told
I am crazy
or a genius
depending
on the audience
I was hypnotised
wanted to
know myself better
after I had
to confront the
stark reality
of being me
during
a lifestyle course
I continuously
prayed
non stop
throughout
my heightened senses
and my
relentless
self examination
took me
to another
plane
I
confronted
me
I took
it
one level
further
into the unconscious
by being hypnotised
Oh my God
He is an atheist
I hear
them say
the know
it all's
of Christianity
who tortured
people
into submission
because
they were
meddling with darkness
and were
then brutally killed
to purify
them
and save their
souls
yes I dared
I did it
and
I was
shocked
beyond belief
I was shocked
that I answered
I died
when asked
what happened
in hospital
I was
shocked
to hear
my parents fighting
over my naughty
brother
from my
mothers womb
I was shocked
when "I:
answered
I am not alone
while I was
in her womb
I was horrified
that
I answered
I am God
when the
entity with me
was asked
who it was
I was
so shocked
I continuously
prayed
for  two
weeks
begging God
forgiveness
for my insolence
and my delving
for the unknown
and you know
what?
it cured
me
of my fear
of death my
 fear of heights
I dared
to
face myself
set yourself
free
by knowing
you
that is
the start
of true
spirituality
and
you may just
get closer
to the one
you perceive
to be God
I
dared
and lived
to tell
the tale
Peace and love be with you
my mystical brothers and sisters
forever
Amen
doulos
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 



1 comment:

  1. I dared

    to

    face myself

    set yourself

    free

    by knowing

    you

    that is

    the start

    of true

    spirituality

    and

    you may just

    get closer

    to the one

    you perceive

    to be God

    I

    dared

    and lived

    to tell

    the tale

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