My Diary December 2013 onwards

Alien

If we do know know something

It is easy to explain it away

As being alien

Man searches continuously

Because there is something

Amiss in it’s being

Early man was sufficiently intelligent

For their time

Thousands of years later

“we know more”

But we are merely sufficiently

Intelligent for our time

Ancient man started using

Hallucinogenic drugs

To “communicate”

With it’s God’s

God’s were something

They could not

Understand

Something bigger

And mightier than them

In early times

According to the

Holy Bible

Angels were visible

And even procreated

 

With human women

They produced Giants

That were destroyed

And together with that

Man’s ability to see

These splendid

Celestial beings

Some remembered them

And started worshipping them

As their Gods

Today we are looking

For extra terrestrial life

Some Cults even

Believe these beings

Commonly known as Aliens

Were the creator

I am Christian

And I know

My religion

Must seem weird and unbelievable

To those outside

I mean really

“they eat their God’s flesh

And drinks His blood”

Their God is fierce

And have three heads

And requires of them

To sacrifice their

First born”

Who built the Pyramids?

“aliens did”

And everything inexplicable

Will get the same explanation

If there indeed are Aliens

We would have volumes

Of literature about them

I believe we do have

Literature about them

In our libraries

Because  we have not defined them

We do not understand them

Or their ability

Or their intelligence

The y are merely caricature

Of our imagination

There are celestial beings

There is a creator

The majority of earthlings believe that.

When we have developed to a level,

Where we can understand them

We will be sufficiently intelligent,

To do exactly that

Those in the know

Are no longer physically with us

They are in a spiritual state

Our discovery of ourselves

Does not lie out in the expanse

It lies within us

If we understand ourselves

And our spiritual nature

We will discover “them”

Those Aliens

That we believe

Created everything

We cannot explain

So Are they out there?

I dare say yes

But our understanding

Of who and what they are

Is too limited

Because we are not

Sufficiently spiritually intelligent

To know

We are simply too human

Peace and love be with you

My brothers and sisters

Forever

Amen

doulos

 

The Box

 

So you have to think outside it

 

Ok will do

if and when I find out

what the heck it is

This box thing

And how on earth

did I get into it

in the first place?

 My little girl had insecurities

and we, the parents

were the source

with our never ending

fighting and bickering

I realised I had to help her

I got professional help,

referred to me,

by he paediatrician

She gained confidence

and we were more

aware of the effect

our behaviour had on her.

She came up with

this wisdom

"Mommy, therapy

is just you helping yourself"

Praise God

that I now know

She is well on the way

to reach her full potential

She gave me two answers

with that statement

How did I get into the box

and how do I get out

So you must help yourself

first you must recognise

 and admit, that you have

a problem

Then you help yourself

There is help

Choosing the right help

is the tricky part

You are not going

to find it from your friends

or from other church

 members

Neither your barman

nor his merchandise

nor The weed

or other

recreational drugs

They are all going to

disappoint you bitterly

and lead you even further

down the path to

self destruction

There are trained people

we sometimes call

Shrinks

Find yourself a "shrink"

you can trust

There is no shame to it

Normally ,those who

contributed heartily

in stuffing you into

the box

Like parents, siblings and friends

or your life partner

will probably

point the finger

right back to you

I know

I was there done that

and got the T-shirt

This black sheep

helped himself

I went To professional

Psychiatrists

Therapists

Life Skills Guru's

Rehabilitation centre's

all just to find out

I know the answers

I indeed, AM the Answer

Now my Box

is no longer a box

It is my treasure chest

where I keep things I love

Good memories, nice experiences

my positive characteristics

those I dearly love

and dearly love me

No you Twat

not them

the images I hold of them

And of course

the one I love the most

Elohim,my Father

and little Fransie

Me ,myself and I

The new better and improved

version with loads of extra padding

and all the accessories

that age brings

Like glasses, hearing aids,

pacemakers and the like

I took back my Mojo

reclaimed myself

Loved little Fransie

all over

and held his hand

on the journey

to help himself

Rebirth of Me

As Christians we believe

We can be reborn

Once we acknowledge God

and accept Him

into our lives

He never put us into the box

He birthed us out of the womb

as free citizens

of planet Earth

we gradually climbed into the box

out of fear, hurt,pain

disappointment

and feeling unloved

If someone, along the line

told us the secret

of victory in Life

this long arduous journey

of self destruction

would never have happened

If someone loved us enough

to save us from this trap

of Life

It would never have happened

Now help yourself

take control

rebirth yourself

and enjoy the rest

of your life

in freedom

DO IT

and Today

will be

the first day

of the rest of your life

Peace and love be with you

my beloved brothers and sisters

forever

Amen

doulos

Heaven

 Tata

Departed this realm

and is resting

in a place of Peace and beauty

No more pain

None of the anguish

of oppression

none of the need

to overcome injustice

 believe that is a special

place for him

Not because he spent

27 years in jail

not because he was a leader

and a Freedom fighter

There were others

before him

that were jailed

and were leaders

and freedom fighters

Because he was humane

he was humble

he was forgiving

he had vision

he had tenacity

That my dear friends

are the qualities

that made him an Icon

It is now up to us

to keep this vision

Of a Democracy

free of prejudice

based on Race and Gender

and religious convictions

I posted a picture

of a boxer

only because I was one

and can relate to it

It may be he will meet

Verwoerd

He might even meet Hitler

I see your anger

Why

The Lion and the Lamb

shall lie together

The Eagle and the dove

share a perch

Human emotion

and human prejudice

will be no more

there is no place for it

Hunger and disease

are no more

Just peace

and serenity

even for a

undeserving old fart

like me

Our bodies that

bound us to earth

are no more

we have eternal

celestial bodies

No hunger

no fear

no pain

no anger

we have become

the embodiment

of pure Love

Even I

shall one day

be able

to sit

with Tata

and ask him

ten thousand questions

for we shall have eternity

to do whatever

we whish

I would thank him

and he would

smile

and ay no

that is not necessary

Darwin was wrong

the only evolution

of man

is spiritual

not physical

I Greet you Tata

I wish you well

and I say

Thank you

Africa is no

longer the

Dark Continent

with shining lights

like you

May peace and love be with you

my fellow South Africans

forever

Amen

doulos

 

 

 Pool Fool

Dad cleans pool

it rains

dad cleans pool

it storms

dad cleans pool

cloud burst and hail

dad buys more pool chemicals

mother of all storms

dad severely prunes tree

mom threatens divorce

dad cleans pool

 a kazillion mosquitoes

squats in pool

dad buys more chemicals

dad cleans pool

kids dog mauls creepy

creepy dies horrible death

dad buys new creepy

pool pipes serve as Christmas decorations

dog demolishes them

dad buys pipes

dust storm dumps mine dump in pool

dad excavates

fills pool

buys chemicals

dad cleans pool

it rains

da threatens to fill pool and plant vegies

wife threatens with divorce

dad cleans pool

seven year peach rain arrives

Patktown prawns drown in pool

dad is happy

child threatens to abscond

dad buries Parktown prawns

with full military honour

dad buys chemicals

dad cleans pool

Family visits

kids crowds pool

urine smell intolerable

first bath they had

since school closed

dad removes sweet wrappers from

broken pool pump

dad buys new pool pump

dad fills pool

dad buys chemicals

dad cleans pool

dad empties case of whiskey in pool

dad swims for first time

this year

cannot get out of pool

without assistance

Divorce lawyer gets

frantic call from wife

Dad buys chemicals

and cleans pool

Happy silly season

my brothers and sisters

and may peace and love be with you

forever

Amen

doulos

 

Dream

For once

In more than 12 years

I could enjoy music

hear lyrics

and be swept

away

My heart pines

my soul overflowing

I greet an Icon

I savour the sunshine

Bitter Sweet

life is bitter sweet

the sparkling eyes

of a wandering baby

so dependant

on her vagrant parents

sweetly awakened me

yes they came back

with baby Q

in her pram

wrapping presents

seems vulgar

reflected in their

poverty

the beauty of their love

for each other

under African skies

undiminished

I seek my soul

beg it forgiveness

for starving it

from my love

I am rooted

in African soil

I embrace

my colourful family

the shades of earth

they are

my life

they are me

Unite my fellow man

Set down the spear

of inadvertence

bury the hatchet

of brother Cain

Am I my  brother's keeper

Indeed I am

Peace and love be with you

my fellow Africans

forever'Amen

doulos

 

K.I.S.S.

 

Am I going to get Soppy

in my old age

or shall I remain a

cantankerous Old Fart

to the bitter end

Will my faculties

finally dissolve

into the quick mire

of my tumbled memory

Keep

It

Simple

Stupid

Someone I dearly love

suffers from the dreaded

Alzheimer's disease

The same scourge

that took my mother away

there are some indelible

memories seared

into my conscious

One is of Mom

frail, broken and bewildered

abandoned

Thank God

I could rip her away

from that dreaded place

But she had already left us

"Hallo Pappie, het die

babbatjies melk?"

It tears you apart

when you,the youngest one

becomes Pappie and get asked

if You have milk

Sorrow deeply edged

in her subconscious

kept alive for untold

years of misery

and heartache

And it tears in me

My soul is ripped apart

I cry out to

The Creator

My Pappie

WHY?

As always He answers me

with simple words

 "I Love You"

Two people

in my life

lost

through worries

The continuous stress

of living

a life

accepting your "Fate"

No

NOOOOOO

a thousand times NO

Stop worrying

right now

I command you!

Stop  destroying

yourself

Take the rocks

of painful memories

the boulders of regret

the mountains of guilt

and remove it

from your shoulders

and place

them at the foot

of the Holy Cross

Let His blood

wash away your pain

soothe your anger

and forgive yourself

For you have been

forgiven

the moment you knelt

at the foot

of the Cross

It is

that simple

I give you my word

it is that simple

That my friend

is the message

of the Holy Book

Yes I know

they are in a better place

My mothers Lifeless body

her face serene

I could see

the peace

and love enveloping her

If only she kept it simple

If only she stopped worrying

If only people stopped

hurting her

The Secret

my dear beloved friends

is simple

You have been given

the power

to free yourself

to regenerate yourself

to recreate yourself

If only someone

told you so

Let us have Charity

in our hearts

towards our Gods

towards our fellow man

towards ourselves

I hear my

indignant fellow Christians

You only have One God

Indeed bro

Indeed

and He are three

Let the peace and love

of He who are Three

be with you

my fellow earthlings

and may

He

grant you

Sanity

Love

Charity

Peace

Forever

Amen

doulos